oy heah, here's a picture of jason and me enjoying our half hour ferry ride from virginia to north carolina on memorial day weekend. guess which one of us is baked?
if you guessed both, you are correct.
.: words: Joel T. 6/30/2002 03:44:00 PM
brasil won.. but i already knew that.. woke up at 7am on the fuckin' dot and went back to sleep until 8am and turned the game on.. 2-0. good.. could that german goalkeeper be any more fuckin' dramatic? fuckin baby.. its just a game, you still get your salary for catching balls, so lighten the hell up. its so fucking nice out.. i've spent my day like i spent my night- alone.. but having a great day! swept, mopped, and vaccuumed in the nude, then showered, dropped off my laundry, and hit the 99 cent stores hardcore .. then i went to the local chinese nick-nack, doo-dad and what-not store (they sell literally everything) and got all this great new shit for my apt (including a new tea kettle, pots and pans, religious candles, etc) and i'm going back out to get some other stuff.. got a new knife set, new glasses (with DICE on them) and other nifty shit. i'm psyched.. i took some great photos yesterday.. maybe i'll post some of them up here.. i am still working on the new site.. so this next one is going to go all the way through winter, so i never have to do it again for awhile.. oh yeah, the kid that was helping me at the store spoke japanese and was really impressed with the way i spoke.. he was like "how long did you live there" "dono gurai jikan sundemashita ka" and i was like "roku ka getsu kan" (about half a year) and he was all super nice after that.. i think they thought i was like going to shoplift or something cause they're always following you (or me, rather) around the store.. but once they found out i was one of them (so to speak, or speak to say) they were all cool as shit.. anyway, so i have a spring in my step.. i heard the partridge family on the p.a. in the store and it was fun.. so i'm going to go return to the sunshine, get my ass some water ice (grape and lime!) and look forward to the full hour of simpsons tonight. then home movies, then crank yankers, then brak/space ghost, and.. what do i do after that? oy heah, i'll do some work (i guess).. anyway, its amazing what a little alone time and sunshine can do .. last night i was feeling you.. baby, blue.
current mood: hahaha
current music: the partridge family- i think i love you
I was sleeping and right in the middle of a good dream
Like all at once I wake up from something that keeps knocking at my brain
Before I go insane I hold my pillow to my head
And spring up in my bed screaming out the words I dread
I think I love you
This morning I woke up with this feeling
I didn't know how to deal with and so I just decided to myself
I'd hide it to myself and never talk about it
And did not go and shout it when you walked into the room
I think I love you
I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say that I never felt this way
I don't know what I'm up against
I don't know what it's all about
I got so much to think about
Hey, I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say I never felt this way
Believe me you really don't have to worry
I only wanna make you happy and if you say "hey go away" I will
But I think better still I'd better stay around and love you
Do you think I have a case let me ask you to your face
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
© 1970 by Screen Gems-Columbia Music, Inc.
.: words: Joel T. 6/30/2002 03:31:00 PM
should i just go to sleep now and get up to watch the world cup? or will i hear about it in the morning when i wake up? i had a long day.. jason and i drove out to new jersey to our cousin's graduation party.. it was fun to see my sister, and my new baby nephew,evan matthew, and all my extended relatives.. jason and i sat in the sun, dipping our toes in the water (dangling participle) and even managed to shoot some baskets .. we used to do that every day.. go at sunset and shoot hoops until night time.. when life was alot simpler and we only had rock n roll to think about.. i'm talking 91-92.. somewhere in there.. anyway, we totally sucked and it was hotter than shit today (which is really hot) .. so we called it a day around 6 and headed back to the city.. we were way out west on route 80 about 45 minutes out of the city.. i love the suburbs.. don't know about north jersey though- too many cars, too crazy and not too much concern. yeah.. listened to the new dag nasty album- its pretty good, not nearly as good as their former stuff, since this album could easily be replaced with any pennywise or old bad religion record.. but its a good effort.. we ended up listening to some old records indeed though.. and i took some photos of the sun setting in manhattan down various streets as we drove up and down the avenues.. i'll find them in a moment.. right now i feel like sitting on the couch and drinking this vitamin water.. yes, its saturday night and i'm doing just that.. taking time for myself. i think i might try and go to sleep soon.. and get a new air conditioner in the morning sometime.. it would be nice to turn on the game at 7am.. its such an effort to make it all the way to my couch.. i wish i had a little tv in my bedroom i could turn it on and watch it in a half-daze.. it should be great game.. my neighborhood, which is like little ecuador, is going to go fuckin' apeshit in the morning.. it's going to be festive. i hope the right team wins.
¡go brasil!
current mood: should i get up early, or sleep on the couch...
current music: chain of strength- too deep until now
.: words: Joel T. 6/30/2002 12:33:00 AM
fun night.. we deprogrammed. thanks. lets move on with summer already.. here comes july.. ad fortunam.
current mood: sleepy, lonely
current music: nada
.: words: Joel T. 6/29/2002 05:45:00 AM
waiting, watching... over you.
current mood: don't want to go anywhere
current music: jeff buckley- lover you should've come over
.: words: Joel T. 6/28/2002 08:04:00 PM
i told you i spend my days on the computer.. haha .. the humidity is disgusting out... i just went skating, picked up some mail, and dropped by jasons house to sit in the air conditioning for a little while before heading home and getting back to work.. there's nothing interesting happening around park slope today.. nothing photo worthy at least.. so i guess i'll just go home and finish my design work. and sweat it out.. looking forward to having a nice weekend.. hopefully i can make it through tonight without incident.. i want to go to bed early, wake up and feel energized.. i don't know. i wonder if jason's scale is right.. if it is i've lost some weight.. lets go get sundaes.
summer is upon us. in big ways.. where should we go?
current mood: better
current music: verve remixed
.: words: Joel T. 6/28/2002 02:25:00 PM
i actually went to sleep right away last night.. before 2:30 either way (which is never possible usually).. i had the strangest dreams .. i'm glad i already forgot them or i'd probably be more lost than i feel already.. i am coughing again.. i'm spaced out, i have nausea and i have no energy. i just took some robitussin hoping it'll jolt my body awake, but all it seems to have done is make my stomach uneasy... i think i'll spend the day in the bathtub.. i have work to do, and i was thinking of taking a walk, getting really sweaty before it gets crazy hot out (its only 77 right now) and then go do my laundry.. or something like that. i need another vacation. my pop's in town tonight, so i gotta have the strength to go to dinner, and then to stick it out till the end of the party tonight.. then tomorrow jason and i are planning on driving to our cousin's graduation gala (from high school- yes its an important thing) and see my nephew evan and be one of the adoring public. so, please wish me the best as i cough up my lungs and feel like puking every moment.. hopefully when i get on the street in a moment i'll feel better.. i need some air. its what we all need i think. so take a breath.
current mood: moody... cloudy
current music: stan getz
going to take some photos...
.: words: Joel T. 6/28/2002 11:47:00 AM
turn up the blue in your monitor.
.: words: Joel T. 6/28/2002 02:08:00 AM
i just saw the video for saves the day's freakish.. it was funny. they have puppets like cute muppets in the video- i need to see it again, but i forgot how slow as shit that song is.. too slow to dance to thats for sure. anyway, i was just peeing and zoned out as this cool breeze came through the fully opened window and i wondered if my neighbors could see me standing there. then i thought of course not.. the angles are all wrong and shit.. then came back in here and realized this room is only slightly cooler than the rest.. and tomorrow a new a/c unit needs to be taken in, given a nice home, and fed electricity all summer. i feel like stringing up christmas lights and making my crib more festive.. i need some astroturf for my fire escape, and a little habachi.. and then i can send out little invites and have cookouts where everyone stands right inside my window. that would be tight. yeah.. but you know, at least its friday.. my dad's coming into town tonight for some meetings, so i'm going to go meet him and jason for dinner and then have to be at our party all night.. for more info visit soundgizmo.com which is one of our electronic labels, specifically drum n bass and downtempo, but it has all our event information there. i can't wait to get a new kite.. and my tan's fading so i must get into the sun.. tomorrow's as good a day as any to go to the botanical garden, but its not the same going alone.. the star wars exhibit is almost over at the brooklyn museum of art too.. on july 7th.. so maybe i should spend my monday going there.. hopefully won't be too crowded.. still haven't seen the latest star wars yet.. i gotta do that on a tuesday morning so no kids will be tempted to ruin my buying the lie. yeah.. so i am not feeling up to doing shit right now.. i just randomly put on some website and their background music is the chillest spacey ambient soundscape.. i'm leaving it on all night, since its really really mellow and sounds like some crazy ass brian eno stuff. no beats no beats.. yeah.. i realize i haven't posted any pictures here lately. i'm going to go shutter crazy soon and take a heap more.. i have been trying to organize my shots into different folders for the new and improved photography section, and i just haven't had enough time to get my new site together.. maybe i'll spend a few days on it after the weekend and after i get my real important things done.. its not that important. this is just a place i like to hang out on and spit things into. chronical what i did .. sometimes i can't remember what i did last week and i can refer to this, so its helpful in some ways.. plus it doesn't type back. and thats fine. oh wait.. i have to go talk to mr. t bot.. he's always got something enlightening to say.
does anyone else have a problem with this spring water being named "volvic"?
hmmm..
.: words: Joel T. 6/28/2002 02:05:00 AM
i'm incredibly baked and my hands seem like they're 20 inches long or something.. maybe they are, or my arms have gotten longer or something, but either way i don't know how i used to have sex on a waterbed.. it was next to impossible, and yet i had that thing for like 8 years or something.. it was never comfortable.. maybe thats why i love my bed so much now.. its huge in case you didn't know and can fit 6 people easily or more if you know each other really well. i'm in a strange mood- had 2 days of intensive design work to do, plus some papers to fill out, checks to write and other things to worry about.. switching between creative mode and real person has been difficult, but i actually was able to shut off pretty easily last night and drift off.. i've listened to slowdive "just for a day" every single night this week so my brain knows it through and through.. i wish i could find "souvlaki" but thats just one of those phantom records i have to buy over and over because they keep disappearing.. i've gone through like 3 sensefield, 2 saves the day and at least 2-3 verve records over the past year. and now i'm missing something else.. i forget exactly what it is .. oh yeah, vanessa daou "zipless".. if you have my record- give it back .. i'll turn around for just 30 seconds, when i turn around i would like to see it on my desk- no questions asked. ready? ok. ok i'm back and there's nothing there but a pile of smirks. wtf? somebody out there has it. and i won't even bother to talk about my martika records. jeez. anyway- this air conditioner is made in fucking toy land- its for babies i think, really.. its giving a cute little nod at me of some relatively weak freon. its nothing. air conditioner, you suck. and with a heat index like this its awful easy to get all sticky and gross. i need a big ass a/c to go in my kitchen- cool off this hole motherfuck. it would be great.. anyway, i'm rambling.. i'm thinking when i come off the j a little i'll get to working on my site a little, since its way way behind.. i have nothing new or clever to tell you, except that i'm djing tomorrow night (friday) at open air on st. marks between 1st and a. from 10-11ish.. come by early and say hi. umm what else. i have too many candles.. its too vibey in here and i hope i don't pass out before anything gets done.. i'm feeling really really... zzzzzajlksddddsajeh'qDSA
my head fell on the keyboard.. jeez. really. so i better call it a night and see if i can't put this day behind me .. .
current mood: strange, tired, alive
current music: slowdive
.: words: Joel T. 6/28/2002 01:18:00 AM
AQUARIUS:
>>Thursday, June 27
Venus, the planet of values, is allied with Pluto, the planet of transformation, and you have some real boosters or admirers who'd be delighted to facilitate your goals or otherwise pave the way. Actively utilize their existence and support - you haven't networked and helped others without creating a few favors that you can call in.
Today's star rating: ***
so... where are you? i need you. i'm calling in my favors.
current mood: saturnian
current music: the vines- get free
.: words: Joel T. 6/27/2002 01:46:00 PM
tired! up since 11am and its 3am.. and only 4 hours of that time was spent at rehearsal, which was smashing by the way.. we're good.. really good and i'm happy about it.. and then i got home, took a shower, and motherfucker it's still in the 80's and its 3am.. wtf? and its just june.. heat waves are coming our way.. so, alot of work today, i found time to dust and swiffer, pay some bills and even write another tune on my guitar here.. after rehearsal i mean. i've just spent the time from midnight til now to work on some other stuff thats due tomorrow (thursday i mean).. so i'll get up and get at it when my brain isn't so overheated. i've been up till 4-6am the past week.. and later over the weekend.. so anyway, i'm tired to say the least .. i think its another night to sleep on top of the comforter.. it makes my already dreamy bed just a little bit more ethereal.. and i need an ice pack for my face.. oh yeah, i did another fake ass italian water ice, frozen soda in the freezer.. its the bomb diggity. go make yourself one and you'll be psyched when you discover it in the fridge. mine today was flavored something called "7up" ... it was great.. i'm going to make frozen shirley temples.. now if i could just find a place with a frozen cosmopolitan machine i'd be in business. there used to be one on second avenue at like 4th street, but the place is gone now.. so i gotta do some research to say the least. listening to the air conditioner whirl and swirl as i look to curl up in my bed and nod..
it's amazing how with all the music and sounds in this world and your heartbeat is all my ears ever want to hear.
current mood: tired, its humid..
current music: sad songs (say so much)
.: words: Joel T. 6/27/2002 03:04:00 AM
ok .. so it is hot as shit out. and i did sleep on top of my comforter. so it all worked out for the best. had a strange dream i was at some huge rock concert and talking to two assholes. why would my mind waste my great imagination with such a shitty dream? really.. talking to two asshole kids outside of a tent or something and they were just real pricks.. so when i woke up i just got right up cause i didn't want to hang out with THOSE fuckers any more.. umm.. i did so much work last night, i have to bang out some more stuff today .. hopefully the spirit will allow that i do this during the day, since i have band rehearsal tonight.. time to kick out the jams .. so i'm going to go shower, have a banana orange juice protein smoothy and then get on with it.
check this shit out. now we can deforest just like in return of the jedi!
current mood: hungry
current music: bob marley- natural mystic
.: words: Joel T. 6/26/2002 01:38:00 PM
too tired to type anymore.. i just finished working for the evening and baked my brain and now i'm going to lie down and listen to slowdive and look at my lavendar eye pillow.. up real close. thinking about rainbows and other sunny things. its supposed to be 92º today.. is today the today i cry for an air conditioner? my con ed bill shot up from $50 a month to $100 a month since i put this crappy little thing in my window.. i think it just blows air around, no shit.. i need something effective.. that i'll have to wear a sweater in front of perhaps.. that i can trust will not burn my house down. my virgen de guadelupe candle is in full effect and is vibing my room out super nicely with an amber glow.. i'm going to go look at her and listen to this spacey record.. and hopefully fall asleep before the sun wakes up and knocks on my window.
current mood: mmmm... sleeping on top of the comforter never seemed so good
current music: slowdive
.: words: Joel T. 6/26/2002 04:05:00 AM
so here i am.. sitting in my boxers and looking and feeling like a maniac.. i have a full beard practically and i'm beginning to wonder if i should cut my hair.. the frizz factor is coming into play whenever i leave my house and the joke of the air conditioning i'm currently enjoying.. do you know what i did today? i put grape ginger ale in a cup and put it in the freezer. and i just enjoyed it.. i must remember to leave one for myself tomorrow as i'm way too into keeping cool.. yeah .. so i have like 3-4 things i need to design by thursday and i'm still not feeling that incredible urge to design. i felt it last night and it ended up with me going to sleep at 6:15 or something.. the sun was already up thats for sure.. i don't know how i can zone out for hours on end in the dark like this.. and just bang shit out.. when i woke up this morning i was like "who did that?" .. its like that urban legend of the kid who took acid before his s.a.t.'s and a little blue guy jumped up on the table and told him all the answers.. and he didn't do badly either. haha. well, i guess auto pilot was switched on big time.. since i added those archive links above there, i've gone back and randomly read some bits and pieces over the past months.. my writing has gone down in frequency and quality.. i used to be entertaining to read! now i just gripe about everything.. and my back hurts.
i'm drying out.. did i mention that? after my marathon bender this weekend (i think everyone did) my livers about to fall out of my ass.. so i went to a show tonight and had a shirley temple.. i'm still with jah.. one thing at a time. i have alot to do.. a long way to go and a short time to get there.. i'm smokey, does that make you the bandit?
current mood: smoking
current music: jerry reed- east bound and down
East Bound And Down
East bound and down
Load it up and truckin'
We gonna do what they say can't be done
We got a long way to go, and a short time to get there
We're east bound and watch old bandit run
Keep the foot hard on the pedal
So never mind them brakes
Let it all hang out cause we got a run to make
Boys are thirsty in Atlanta, they got beer in Texarcana
And we'll bring it back no matter what it take
East bound and down
Load it up and truckin'
We gonna do what they say can't be done
We got a long way to go, and a short time to get there
I'm east bound and watch old bandit run
East bound and down
Load it up and truckin'
We gonna do what they say can't be done
We got a long way to go, and a short time to get there
We're east bound and watch old bandit run
Old smokie got them ears on
And he's hot on your trail
He ain't gonna rest 'till your in jail
So you gotta dodge 'em and you gotta duck 'em
You gotta keep that diesel truckin
Just whip that hammer down and give it hell
East bound and down
Load it up and truckin'
We gonna do what they say can't be done
We got a long way to go, and a short time to get there
We're east bound and watch old bandit run
